I have received some texts from few people wishing me the best for tomorrow - BIG THANKS to all. Yesterday, I wished the OSCE was this morning, coz I can hardly wait to finish OSCE so that I can move on to do some readings quickly. Today, I cannot believe it is tomorrow - the day we have to put in everything that we have learnt (or not) in the past 5 years of medical school.
I had a nervous breakdown far too early this time. I think it was between 2-3 weeks ago. Then, alhamdulillah it has been alright so far although frankly, at the back of my mind, there is still this worry that **** (but I am not gonna say this - I always, always throw this away as far as I can).
"Kalau Iffa buat camni, macam Iffa sangka buruk kat Allah, kan tak baik. Exam pun belum, kita usaha lah dulu". Yes. I had a moment of a serious breakdown, and I know that was bad. Shame on me.
Thanks to a friend who has always been there for me.
Everyhting that I have said previously is all coming back to me. Whether I pass or fail this one, it has all been written. All that I need to do is to put some effort into what I am doing, so to gain His mercy and as it is one important rule of sunnatullah. I have a few hours left before OSCE tomorrow - and to me, all I really need at this moment is to keep telling myself that I can do it. We all can do it. InsyaAllah.
I am just hoping and praying that we will all be very calm and able to understand the questions and finish it in 7 minutes each time. And hopefully I will not have that horrible sleep tonight where I will wake up every hour or so, looking at the time, worrying that I will be late for the exams. (I am sure lots of people do this too).
Okay, please pray for us.
ps: Hoepfully I will be able to take Dr Dark's advice til tomorrow; everything is in your head. You are going into the exams knowing that you will pass it. It really boosts up the confidence if you keep saying that. Try it!
I had a nervous breakdown far too early this time. I think it was between 2-3 weeks ago. Then, alhamdulillah it has been alright so far although frankly, at the back of my mind, there is still this worry that **** (but I am not gonna say this - I always, always throw this away as far as I can).
"Kalau Iffa buat camni, macam Iffa sangka buruk kat Allah, kan tak baik. Exam pun belum, kita usaha lah dulu". Yes. I had a moment of a serious breakdown, and I know that was bad. Shame on me.
Thanks to a friend who has always been there for me.
Everyhting that I have said previously is all coming back to me. Whether I pass or fail this one, it has all been written. All that I need to do is to put some effort into what I am doing, so to gain His mercy and as it is one important rule of sunnatullah. I have a few hours left before OSCE tomorrow - and to me, all I really need at this moment is to keep telling myself that I can do it. We all can do it. InsyaAllah.
I am just hoping and praying that we will all be very calm and able to understand the questions and finish it in 7 minutes each time. And hopefully I will not have that horrible sleep tonight where I will wake up every hour or so, looking at the time, worrying that I will be late for the exams. (I am sure lots of people do this too).
Okay, please pray for us.
ps: Hoepfully I will be able to take Dr Dark's advice til tomorrow; everything is in your head. You are going into the exams knowing that you will pass it. It really boosts up the confidence if you keep saying that. Try it!
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