Sunday, June 26, 2005

JETLAG

Please do not assume that I am exaggerating this, but a week in Malaysia...I am not yet recovering from my jetlag. Yup, I am still living in UK time. Went to bed at 12 last night coz promised to meet Ija at MAS office today. But I couldn't sleep at all. The last time I glanced at the alarm clock on the table, it was 3.24 a.m. Not sure what time did I fall asleep after that.

Remembering the times when I first arrived in Newcastle last year. It took me more than a week to sleep at 'normal' time again. It was my first time experiencing the lag in time, as it was my first time travelling oversea. I slept at 9, or 8 probably; and woke up at three (or maybe two) in the morning. It was so cold (haven't bought my precious underblanket taht time), and I kept trying to sleep (but kept waking up again and again) so that at least I will have enough sleep and avoid that bad habit of sleeping in the class (or should I call it lecture by now?) Then, I managed to adapt myself, and had my day and night returned to a normal circle based on UK time.

The difference between the present jetlag and the past one is that in the latter, I had always tried to make myself sleep at times that my brain perceived as night. As for now, I don't really mind staying up late at night and waking up a BIT late in the morning coz nothing waited for me the next day. Except for today. Like I said before, coz I had promised Ija to meet her.

The point is... I don't really know what am I trying to say here. But anyway. The point is, when you know that you have a responsibility lying ahead, ie when you are always aware of your responsibility (in my case, it was the promise I made), you will always try to work towards it, doing things that you should do. The problem with us is that sometimes, we can't really see what our responsiblities are. We always forget our biggest responsibilities on the earth. If we are always aware of those... then things would be so much different, I believe. (Watched Star Wars last night, =P hehe)

"Not equal are those of the believers who sit (at home), except those who are disabled (by injury or blind or lame), and those who strive hard and fight in the cause of Allah with their wealth and their lives. Allah has preferred in grades those who strive hard and fight with their wealth and their lives above those who sit (at home). Unto each, Allah has promised good (Paradise), but Allah has preferred those who strive hard and fight above those who sit (at home) by a huge reward". [4;95]

Thursday, June 23, 2005

MELAYU MUDAH LUPA

Tiap-tiap hari gune internet, gune komputer. Tapi taktau kenape malas nak update. Padahal selalu je terpikir nak update. Banyak rasenye nak tulis. Tapi itulaa...malas. MALAS. Isk isk isk...bile la nak rajin.

Alhamdulillah, selamat sampai kat Malaysia 16 Jun yang lalu. Stay KL 2 hari, pastuh baru balik terengganu... Seronok nak sampai rumah. Lame tak nampak signboard dalam bahasa melayu. Lame tak nampak signboard "Islam Hadhari Terengganu Bestari". Alhamdulillah dah pendek sket journey sebab dah ade highway baru. Tapi bile highway tuh nak masuk trg?? Lame tak dengar kisah2 highway nih.

Anyway. Finally, terase jugak kepanasan terik matahari kat negara tropika tanah tumpah darah nih. Memang panas. Lame dah tak rase panas camni. Balik rumah kalo buleh nak pasang aircond jek 24 hours, tapi mengenangkan mahal, takleh la pasang tiap2 ari. Selang satu hari ok jugak =) Hmm...belum lagi panas akhirat.

Rase cam ade banyak benda nak tulis, tapi tak ingat. Teringat the next day sampai KL, bace paper...buleh cakap culture shock ke? Two great news in the front page. 1st, pasal artis-artis yang kene tangkap pasal dadah. Mungkin tak heran sangat, sebab dulu pon dah penah dengar. 2nd, jarum dan kondom diedar percuma untuk penagih dadah? Wah wah wah...seronok la penagih dadah yer? Tak payah susah-susah dah *sigh*

Sekarang tengah dengar lagu Alarm Me. Adakah Kau Lupa.

Adakah kau lupa
Kita pernah berjaya
Adakah kau lupa
Kita pernah berkuasa

Memayungi dua pertiga dunia
Merentas benua melayar samudera
Keimanan juga ketaqwaan
Rahsia mereka capai kejayaan

Bangunlah wahai anak bangsa
Kita bina kekuatan jiwa
Tempuh rintangan perjuangan

Gemilang generasi yang silam
Membawa arus perubahan
Keikhlasan hati dan nurani
Ketulusan jiwa mereka berjuang

Sejarah telah mengajar kita
Budaya Islam di serata dunia
Membina tamadun berjaya
Merubah mengangkat maruah

Teringat kata-kata PM kite dulu; "Melayu mudah lupa".

Tengah cakap-cakap dengan sorang kawan, die bukak topik pasal LUPA. Kadang-kadang kita selalu jugak salahkan lupa. Terlupa itu, terlupa ini. Tapi kalau takde, susah jugak. Maybe kita akan selalu duk bersedih jek. Sebab selalu ingat waktu arwah nenek kesayangan meninggal. Selalu ingat waktu mende2 sedih menimpa kita. So, lupa juga adalah nikmat dari Allah. Cuma yang sedihnya, ada benda2 yang cepat sangat kita lupa.

Sahabat: Kisah tsunami hari tuh pon sekejap je sedar. Sekarang dah tak ingat. Nih sebut baru nak ingat balik. (lebih kurang camnih aa dialog die, TAK INGAT sangat la)

Huhu...aku pon, kalo tak sebut balik, sure dah terlupe. Balik Malaysia nih, cube tanye balik, berape ramai yang masih lagi gerun dengan bencana alam 26 dec ari tuh? Kalo dulu selalu dengar "isk...takutnya", "isk...bahayanya", "tulaa...bala. Banyak sangat maksiat kat sana". Sekarang? Tsunami ke...tsumawi? Huhuhu

Kita memang mudah lupa.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

THE VERY LAST DAY IN NEWCASTLE

Pejam celik pejam celik, dah habis 1st year blaja Medic. Duk imbas balik 1 tahun ni, macam2 dah jadi. Teringat dulu...

1. Sedih sangat sebab tak dapat offer mane2 university nak buat medic. Memang sedih dan sedih dan sedih. Tak tahu nak describe dah. Parents pon bimbang. Dulu abang nak gi oversea pon, tak dapat fly. Sebab ekonomi meleset. Ari tu, bimbang kalau2 takde uni nak terima, mane plak nak apply kat Malaysia ni. Tak faham jugak apesal la Malaysia uni tak accept a level yerk... Anyway, rupenye, kalau tengok balik banyak hikmahnya. Kes abang dulu, memangla susah dah abes buat preparation course kat Maktab Sains MARA, Perak (kalau tak silap), pastu sebab takleh fly, kene start balik. Berape kali kene hantar kat mane2 uni ntah. Kate orang, cam pelajar terbuang pulak. Akhirnya, bile ditempatkan kat UNITEN, baru la stable, and alhamdulillah, he completed his degree there. Although kawan2 die dah ramai pon yang keje time tuh, ade yang dah pakai kereta kot. Aku pon tak berape ingat sangat. Kanak2 lagi time tuh. But hikmahnya, although lambat habiskan degree, alhamdulillah sangat, die senang dapat kerja. Mungkin tuh rezeki die. Dengar kata bukan senang accountant nak dapat kerja skarang.

Kes sendiri plak, memang dah banyak kali pon citer kot, kalo uni lain tak reject my applications, I won't be offered to come here in Newcastle. Suke sangat dah duk kat sini. Best2. Sape2 yang tau ade orang nak datang sambung study kat UK nih, datangla uni of Newcastle... hehe, sempat promote lagi. Anyway. Kesimpulannye, memang Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

"....Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" [al-Baqarah:216]

2. Lepas habis A level, tak lekat pon kat rumah. Baru je balik umah, papa kene heart attack, masuk CCU. Aku plak kene pegi KL balik pasal ade psychological course for JPA students. Pastuh ade itu la, ini laa... macam2. Memang ulang alik pegi KL je la time tuh. Pastuh problem nak fly plak. Dengan terkejutnya dapat call suh fly esok hari. Isk2, panic sungguh. Naik la flight pegi KL satu famili. Sebab papa dah takleh drive jauh2. (That was the first time aku naik kapal terbang. Orang lain ie my famili semue dah penah naik. Huhu...Ingatkan my first flight would be the international one). Sekali visa tak siap jugak, JPA suh tunggu lagi brape ari ntah, parents kene balik trg sebab keje, aku pon stay KL jek. Nak balik karang, gile mahal la plak. Penat dah pon ulang alik KL KT. Kesian sungguh time tuh. Rase menyusahkan orang betul nak fly. Rase cam nak nasihat adik2 tak payah la study oversea nanti. Time datang UK, semester dah pon start (luckily for this year the term will start a bit later, on the 26th Sep), ade laa tertinggal beberape hari lecture. Pastuh tension pikir, apesal aku tak duk uni accommodation, apesal duk kat umah. Tapi rasenye, ade hikmahnya duk kat rumah ni. Like I said, Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-Nya.

3. Dah abis rupenye segala exam dan assignments for stage 1. Oh ye, alhamdulillah, for our final stage 1 exam kat Newcastle nih (medic), everybody in the study group passed. And one got Merit, walaupon tak cakap pon kat aku...congratulations!! Next year go for distinction lak k. At least ade pendorong, semangat sket. And for stage 2 examination, our Malaysian senior Su Ann won a prize- which indicated her as best student for her stage. If she can, why not us?? Hehe, camnih la, habes exam, dah lega pass, semangat. Harap2 tak pudar. Teringat before kuar result memang horror. Bimbang kalo2 kene viva. Bimbang kalo2 kene resit. Sebab soalan memang susah. Tapi study memang dah study, although dah 1 week before exam, main2 jugak laa, asyik tido n main game kat henpon jek, mebbe sebab dah otak dah tepu campur homesick. But thanks a lot to study group, at least gerak jugak la otak bincang ngan derang. So memang lepas jawab exam tinggal tawakkal je.

Tapi sebab dah biase, kuar jek exam nak cakap susah. Teringat ade sahabat nih cakap "Kite nih kadang2 suke sangat sangka buruk kat Allah. Baru je kuar exam, dah cakap, faillah aku kali, habislah aku kali ni...bukan ke tuh jadi doa??". Erk, terkena jugak la. Memang elak cakap mende merepek lepas abes paper ari tuh. Cume, susah la nak lari dari komplen paper tuh susah. Tapi alhamdulillah, sayangnye Tuhan kat aku, pass jugak. Memang doa je yang tolong. Mimpi macam2 hari nak dapat viva list. Horror betul. Bangun tidur, "peluh jeruk" - kate orang teranung kite la. Ade mimpi pass. Ade mimpi fail. Mimpi dapat viva merit distinction pon ade. Hehe. InsyaAllah next years for the latter one. Ameen...

Anyway, cube pikir jap. Kite slalu jek berdoa nak dapat A. Or maybe in my case nak dapat pass or merit or even distinction (why not anyway). Tapi kite kene ingat Allah lagi tahu ape yang terbaik untuk kita. Patutnye, doa kite jadi: Ya Allah, permudahkan lah aku nak dapat distinction kalau itu yang terbaik untuk aku. Ameen. Sebabnye, mane la tahu dengan dapat distinction this year menjadikan kite rase terer dan malas dah nak belajar next year, pastuh terbantut cite2 nak buat medic. Nauzubillah. Cume nak tekannye di sini, memang macam tu la konsepnya. Sebab kite memang la nak jadi doktor, n we work for it, and after that, serahkan je kat Allah. Yakin pada ketentuan-Nya. Pasti ade hikmah kalau tak terjadi ape yang kite nak. Yakin bahawa Allah tak akan bebankan kita dengan ape yang kita tak mampu.

4. Ari tuh, sibuk nak beli tiket balik Mesia. Esok dah nak balik.

5. Awal2 datang dulu, takdela homesick sangat. Tapi klimaks homesick was just before final exam. Memang ingat nak balik jek. Tuh yang malas nak stadi. Or mebbe stadi tak masuk, so malas nak stadi.

6. Dulu duk sibuk pikir mane nak letak barang, mane nak stay next year. Skang dah 95% kosong bilik tuh. Credits sket : Thanks to 112 dilston road - Kak Ina, Kak Farah n Kak Shaf sebab bagi kami tumpang barang kat sane. Hehe, berkotak2 barang. Thanks to Kak Jua and Poknik n his housemates tolong punggah barang, angkut pi umah derg. And of coz thanks to my housemates yang bergotong royong bersihkan rumah.

7. Banyaklaa mende2 lain.

Hmm...itu la. Pejam celik, pejam celik. Dah nak balik Malaysia semula. Sekejap jek rasenye mase berlalu. Umur pon dah naik 21 kan. Muhasabah diri balik, ilmu tak banyak pon. Makin banyak belajar, makin banyak benda yang tak tahu. Dalam setahun nih, berape banyak la agaknye dah sumbangkan something untuk agama. Dalam setahun nih jugak, macam2 kes dah wujud. Kes Aminah Wadud, kes Jeslina Hashim, kes Ahmad Hafizal, kes Prince Harry, kes buang quran dalam toilet, kes Zouks, kes ape lagi yer?? Macam2 lagi la. Tepuk dada, tanyelah hati...tersentuh ke tak kite agaknye bile bace kes2 yang lebih kurang camni?

Anyway. =) Tomorrow before 7 will be my last moment in Newcatle til next term starts, or should I say just right before going to tour the Europe?? Hehe =D . Schedule for tomorrow:

7.00 a.m : Mega bus Newcastle to central London
3.00 p.m : National express central London to Heathrow terminal 3
7.05 p.m : MAS London to KLIA (via Langkawi)

Total journey = approximately 7 hrs + 40 mins + 13 hrs = about 21 hours. Bundarkan jadi 1 day of travelling. What an exhasuting journey, I supposed but hopefully it won't be that tiring after all. But anyway, it's worth it coz insyaAllah, i'm gonna be in Malaysia in a FEW hours!! Mudah2an semue berjalan lancar dan selamat, ameen...

P/S: For contact numbers in Malaysia, insyaAllah still gune no handphone lame kat Malaysia dulu and no umah dah tukar telekom so pakai no baru. Nanti post kat friendster.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

MASAK-MASAK

Two days ago, invited Kak Noorul and Kak Wani for a lunch at our house. Menu: Nasi Bukhari and puding jagung. Nampak gaye, nasi bukhari dah improved, takdelah nasi menjadi bubur cam first time buat. Hehe...gamble jek, dah la jemput orang. Sori laa yer akak2 jadi bahan eksperimen kami. Dalca Ija...dah mantap, buleh bukak kedai dah encik tuh. And Iris was there as well, we were trying an egg tart recipe. Very nice. I'll put the recipe later.

Having Kak Wani and Kak Noorul here meant having Newcastle babies - Nuha and Danish...tengokla derg comel tak?

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Baby Danish was born at the age of 36 weeks gestation, weighing only 2.6kg. Was babysitting him last friday, when he was 2 weeks old, or should I say 38 weeks gestation, if he was still using the oxygen from his mother's blood. Alhamdulillah sihat jek Danish, although he seems to have jaundice and he is very small. Hehe, gabra jugak jage Danish ari tuh....1st time duh. Tapi seronok jugak. Comel betul...sejuk hati tengok Nuha ngan Danish....kanak2, suci bersih dari dosa.

I am supposed to check the results at Medical School today. Malasnye nak gerak. Apekah??Orang Islam takleh malas2. Besok pegi cek, insyaAllah...

OK. Recipe time. Kalo rajin buat laa, kami dah eksperimen dah.

EGG TART

Crust pastry:
250g cold butter
50 icing sugar
1 egg yolk
360g plain flour
2 tbsp custard powder

Filling:
310ml hot water
230g castor sugar
1 tbsp evaporated milk
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp vanilla essence
6 eggs

Bake for 20-30 minutes at 180 C.

Have been trying to attach a picture from that day, but don't know what's wrong with photobucket. Or probably the internet is so slow - have downgraded telewest package to the cheapest one since we're going back to Malaysia soon. Yup, Malaysia....I'm coming back!!

Sunday, June 05, 2005

LONG TIME AGO

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Baru berkesempatan nak transferkan gambar from handphone to laptop Ija nih.Ini gambar mase snow dulu, cantik kan awan tuh??subhanallah...tapi kamera handphone jek, so tak clear sangat. 1.3 megapixel je (dalam handphone nampak lg cantik dr yang dah transfer, mebbe sebab screen pon kecik)

Nih sure terinfluence by Asma'...huuh. Nak letak gambar Nuha yang comel tembam gile tuh and Danish too, tapi kene mintak permission dulu. Kalo dapat, bolehla korang tengok camne temba si cerdik tuh =)

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

WARKAH FROM MAMA

Cam tajuk cerpen lak...

But here is one source of my determination...

The last paragraphs of a valuable email (bukan senang my mom nak hantar2 email nih...)

And how are you with your revisions for the coming exams.? Dah ingat ke nama semua ubat-ubatan tu? Please continue working for your own success in your exams from 25th to 27th May. Dhil is now having his end of term tests until his school breaks for only one week starting 27th May. Im will be sitting for her tests starting 19th May till the 26th.Then it'll be the term break for her from 27th for two weeks. Mat duwey will sit for his intersession paper on the 27th May. Abang Kamal just finished his exams.(for confimation)on the 12th. So, semua anak mama are having a critical time. Mama pray for everyone's success.

Pah , I guess this is all for now.For your info., we will be in KB on the 3rd and 4th June (Papa's last session with his Masters student's programme), and will be in Jerantut on 10th and 11th June for Amran's wedding.Finally, we will be with you on the 16th! Can't wait to see you!
Till then, all the best of luck for your exams.

Love,
Mama Jamilah



Sweet tak? Sayang mama! I can't wait going back to home as well!!! Tapi...name2 ubat...huhu...susah laa nak jawab dah ingat ke tak... but we in Newcastle are trying our best for the coming exam. Credits to Ija, Iris, Ngocop, Syedfa, Adri n Tuan sebab sudi berstadi grup bersame2. Mudah2an kite semue berjaye...ameen.

Last shout: TAK SABAR NAK BALIK!!!

Sunday, May 08, 2005

STAGE 1 FINAL EXAM

Wednesday 25 May 2005
9:00 AM
Matching Items

Thursday 26 May 2005
9:00 AM
Data Interpretation

Friday 27 May 2005
9:00 AM
OSC/PE

Horror2.

Please pray for my success.

And good luck to those who are facing final exams too!!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

EXAM.TIME.HOMESICK

Salam.

Just got back from my 2nd GP visit. Alhamdulillah, it had been a great visit. My partner and I was attached to a friend of my GP tutor, god she was so nice that makes me admire the career as a GP - but probably cardiology is still an interesting branch of medicine - I don't know... that's not a big deal, have to pass my 1st year first. That is what matters.

Anyway, it had been a nice day at the GP practise. All things made more sense when the patients that came in to see the GP had those kind of symptoms we had came across in the syllabus. And the patients were all cheerful and informative too. And so health concsious, I would say. Everything was fine...everything. Until the last one - he came with complaints, more about the healthcare system (and not anybody's fault from my view). But that was a good thing to have. Well, guess life will not always be perfect. Like a phrase glued in my English room at KMYS: "POBODY'S NERFECT". Doctors do do mistakes, we can't expect them to to give us the right decision, can we? Sometimes, things just don't happen the way we want it to be.

Hmmm...how actually do people cope with homesick. I have been very very homesick for a couple of days. A complete distraction coz I have very little time for revision and I can hardly concentrate. Or probably it is normal when you are so looking forward going home in a few weeks... Or probably it gets worse when you just called your mum and she told you how things have been changing at home. May be. Or may be we are still wut is so called 'anak mak'. I wish 15 June is just next week or tomorrow would be better. But can I, in the same time, wish that 25 May is two months away?? Can I? (stupid question, isn't it?)

Time. The most precious thing about it is that it moves too fast and we can't repeat it. Another session of cut and paste here. Hope this is not an empty entry.

How `Amr bin Al-`As was aware of the Qur'an's Miracle due to this Surah

They have mentioned that `Amr bin Al-`As went to visit Musaylimah Al-Kadhdhab after the Messenger of Allah was commissioned (as a Prophet) and before `Amr had accepted Islam. Upon his arrival, Musaylimah said to him, "What has been revealed to your friend (Muhammad ) during this time'' `Amr said, "A short and concise Surah has been revealed to him.'' Musaylimah then said, "What is it'' `Amr replied;

[وَالْعَصْرِ - إِنَّ الإِنسَـنَ لَفِى خُسْرٍ - إِلاَّ الَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ وَعَمِلُواْ الصَّـلِحَـتِ وَتَوَاصَوْاْ بِالْحَقِّ وَتَوَاصَوْاْ بِالصَّبْرِ ]

(By Al-`Asr. Verily, man is in loss. Except those who believe and do righteous deeds, and recommend one another to the truth, and recommend one another to patience.) So Musaylimah thought for a while. Then he said, "Indeed something similar has also been revealed to me.'' `Amr asked him, "What is it'' He replied, "O Wabr (a small, furry mammal; hyrax), O Wabr! You are only two ears and a chest, and the rest of you is digging and burrowing.'' Then he said, "What do you think, O `Amr'' So `Amr said to him, "By Allah! Verily, you know that I know you are lying.'' I saw that Abu Bakr Al-Khara'iti mentioned a chain of narration for part of this story, or what was close to its meaning, in volume two of his famous book Masawi' ul-Akhlaq. The Wabr is a small animal that resembles a cat, and the largest thing on it is its ears and its torso, while the rest of it is ugly. Musayli- mah intended by the composition of these nonsensical verses to produce something which would oppose the Qur'an. Yet, it was not even convin- cing to the idol wor- shipper of that time. At-Tabarani recorded from `Abdullah bin Hisn Abi Madinah that he said, "Whenever two men from the Companions of the Messenger of Allah used to meet, they would not part until one of them had recited Surat Al-`Asr in its entirety to the other, and one of them had given the greetings of peace to the other.'' Ash-Shafi`i said, "If the people were to ponder on this Surah, it would be sufficient for them.''

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَـنِ الرَّحِيمِ

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

وَالْعَصْرِ- إِنَّ الإِنسَـنَ لَفِى خُسْرٍ- إِلاَّ الَّذِينَ ءامَنُواْ وَعَمِلُواْ الصَّـلِحَـتِ وَتَوَاصَوْاْ بِالْحَقّ وَتَوَاصَوْاْ بِالصَّبْرِ-

1. By Al-`Asr (Al-`Asr is the time in which the movements of the Children of Adam occur, whether good or evil)
2. Verily, man is in loss
3. Except those who believe and do righteous deeds, and recommend one another to the truth, and recommend one another to patience

Benarlah kata-kata Allah.

CONCLUSION: Let's start managing our time wisely.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

JAUH PERJALANAN...

1. LUAS PENGALAMAN

Would like to respond to Aisyah's latest entry. She is absolutely right. Islam is the way of life. All the rules underline the human nature. Actually I always felt the same way as she did. Sad with my own weakness of not being able to explain to the non-muslims about how Islam deal with those kind of 'social' problems.

There was one day when I had a seminar, discussing about breaching confidentiality. We were given a case about a woman with HIV. One of the Q was 'is telling the public about how HIV can be transmitted through the heterosexual relationship good enough so that people become aware of the health condition of their partners before having sexual intercourse?'(considering the confidentiality issue coz a doc can't directly say "this woman got HIV"). One of my groupmates looked vastly into this Q, and found it hard because so many people will be involved, not only her partners, but the partners of her partners, and then her partners' partners' partners' (heh, buleh ke camni?), then so on... Good. That is why Islam does not permit sex before marriage. Say a married woman is infected, then the only person to be worried of would be her husband. No need to worry about the public. Easy. As simple as that.

There was another day, very recent one - guess it was a week ago....when we were having a seminar about handling sensitive issues. One case was about a lesbian couple, one of them would like to have a child. And the question was what options does she have? As usual...I became so damn quiet during the discussion with smaller group. And obviously much more quiet when I was grouped in with 3 guys discussing about that sensitive issues. Looking for the answer...sperm donation, IVF probably and....this one guy answered 'men'! God why didn't I think of that? But he was absolutely right. That woman in the case should really go back to the human nature and that is the best solution. Why must think of harder options when there is a straight simple solution?

Dah datang tempat orang nih, banyak benda yang bukak mata kita. Banyak benda yang belajar. I think I will never know how to cook nasi lemak if I don't come here. I might never feel how lucky I am to be born as a muslim.

2. SAKIT KAKI

Hehe...silly me. I was walking home from Royal Mail at South Street just now, and suddenly I chose the road I never used before. Thought it might be shorter, but believe me...it's not. I walked extra 30 minutes than I supposed to (if I use the normal path). One hour walking and I am so damn tired. Mase tengah jalan2 tadi tuh terfikir, kadang2 kita nih ade jalan senang nak jugak gune jalan susah. Bagus sebenarnye nak tahu jalan baru tapi, biarlah kene. Ini dah tahu takde mase, lepas tuh nak pegi Netto, nak stadi, kalo sesat penat... nak jugak ikut jalan susah yang taktau hujungnya macammane. Tapi tujuan same, nak sampai kat rumah. Applicable tak kalo letak dalam hidup kite orang Islam. Islam dah kasi kite jalan senang, Islam as the way of life. Yang sedih kadang2 kite tak sedar kite gune jalan yang susah, yang jauh, yang tak tahu pangkalnye buleh sampai ke tak ke syurga. Padahal kalo tanye semue muslims, everybody else indeed, semue nak masuk syurga. Heh, membebel...takpe, peringatan untuk semue, especially yang tukang menulis nih laa...

Anyway, sampai rumah tadi, penat. Makan nasi lemak, pastuh melantak aiskrim ngan roti...nyum2...dah abes...pastuh alhamdulillah kenyang perut, penat kaki, kalo naik bilik nampak katil, for sure rase nak tido. Which is why I am sitting in front of this computer and started playing my fingers on this keyboard a few minutes ago.

And so, here it ends. Dah masuk Asar, at least I manage not to sleep and wait for Asar. And hopefully I shared a nice thing with you guys.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

ASSIGNMENT 4??

Alhamdulillah,

Finally!! I have been able to put in 2 copies of my assignment 4 into the - wut do u call it?? - the post box, i supposed... No more assignment for stage 1 and now, I can concentrate on my studies. Exam is just a few weeks away, and god, i have nothing in my head!

A bit of peringatan untuk kaum lelaki dan kaum wanita sendiri...

4 golongan lelaki yang ditarik oleh perempuan ke neraka

Pertama:- Ayahnya
Apabila seseorang yang bergelar ayah tidak memperdulikan anak-anak perempuannya di dunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat, mengaji dan sebagainya. Dia membiarkan anak-anak perempuannya tidak menutup aurat.....tidak cukup kalau dengan hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja maka dia akan ditarik oleh anaknya.

Kedua:- Suaminya
Apabila seorang suami tidak memperdulikan tindak tanduk isterinya. Bergaul bebas di pejabat, memperhiaskan diri bukan untuk suami tapi untuk pandangan kaum lelaki yang bukan mahram, apabila suami mendiam diri......walaupun dia seorang alim (solat tidak tangguh, puasa tidak tinggal) maka dia akan ditarik oleh isterinya.

Ketiga:- Abang-abangnya
Apabila ayahnya sudah tiada, tanggungjawab menjaga maruah wanita jatuh ke pula abang-abangnya.....jikalau mereka hanya mementing keluarganya sahaja dan adik perempuannya dibiar melencong dari ajaran ISLAM ....tunggulah tarikan adiknya di akhirat.

Keempat:- Anak Lelakinya
Apabila seorang anak tidak menasihati seorang ibu perihal kelakuan yang haram dari islam, maka anak itu akan disoal dan dipertangungjawabkan di akhirat kelak.......nantikan tarikan ibunya.

Maka kita lihat bertapa hebatnya tarikan wanita bukan sahaja di dunia malah di akhirat pun tarikannya begitu hebat...maka kaum lelaki yang bergelar ayah / suami / abang atau anak harus memainkan peranan mereka yang sebenar tidak silap firman ALLAH S.W.T.:-

"HAI ANAK ADAM PERIHARALAH DIRI KAMU SERTA AHLIMU DARI API NERAKA, DIMANA BAHAN PEMBAKARNYA IALAH MANUSIA DAN BATU-BATU....."

Not trying to be sexism here. Cume sebagai peringatan. Muslimin kene sedar betape banyak tanggungjawab derg. Muslimat pulak kene sedar betape senang nak tarik orang masuk neraka, maksudnye, kalo dah senang nak tarik orang lain, diri sendiri ape lagi??

Hmm... Allah jadikan sesuatu siap dengan tugas skali. Tak ade laki ke pompuan yang lg superior. Kalo nak bincang pasal isu laki pompuan taksame rate, tak wujud pon sbenarnye. Tengok kes Aminah wadud dulu la. InsyaAllah boleh amik iktibar. Adil nih maksudnye meletakkan sesuatu pade tempatnye. Not necessarily same ie laki buat tuh pompuan pon buleh. Abis tuh, pompuan pakai baju kurung, laki kene pakai baju kurung laa camtuh??

Ok. Ade lecture dah. Gotta go. Salam.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

HMMM...

Hmmm...kadang2 takut kalo tibe2 banyak plak rezeki yang dapat...

Mase trip pegi Paris ngan rakan2 seperjuangan dulu...

(Aisyah ade £100++)
Iffa: Aisyah, ape kate ko invest laa kat aku duit tuh sket, nnt ko datang UK amik balik. Buleh gak aku gune duit tuh bayar sewa umah bulan April. Ko bukannye gune pon duit pound kat Ireland...
Aisyah: Boleh, Aisyah tak kisah...

Hmmm. Setel prob nak bayar umah. Sayang Aisyah!(hehe, nak kasi Asma' jeles nih)


Balik dr Paris trip...rent setel tapi bills tak cukup nih...tapi takpelaa. Ade laa tuh jalannye.


Mase Iris datang umah sebab rikki road flat takde air...

Iris: Do u know we've got the 10% percent increase?
Iffa: Really? (dengan pantas sekali gerak ke bilik Ninie bukak online banking)

Alhamdulillah, setel bills.


Ade kawan kat US nak balik Malaysia. Nak pesan camera canon kat sane lagi murah. Duit tak cukup jugak. Tapi nak tunggu JPA masuk untuk May tak sempat pulak.

Ija: Iffa nak pinjam duit Ija tak? Ari tuh cakap nak pinjam.
Iffa: Eh takpe. Cukup dah duit nak bayar umah. Banyak pulak rezeki...tapi kan...(terus cerite pasal camera tuh)
Ija: Pinjam je la duit Ija dulu, nanti susah dah nak pesan.
Iffa: Hmm...nanti banyak pulak kene pinjam. Segan dah. (heh, ngan Ija pon segan)
Ija: Takpe. Banyak lagi duit Ija dalam bank. Baik Iffa pakai dulu. Ija tak gune pon lagi.
Iffa: Hehe, buleh jugak. Nanti JPA dah masuk Iffa terus bayar k?
Ija: Takyah bimbang2.
Iffa: Heh, orang kaye aa katekan

Akhirnye, dah pesan beli camera. To Ija, nanti Iffa bayar k.


A few days ago, kat cluster, time tengah nak print 1st draft of biopsychosocial report...walaupon actually dah agak takde printing credit pon. Tapi nak print jugak. Sekali, taktau nak senyum ke ape...tapi memang senyum la kan. Bagitau Ija pasal citer nih mase kat Muslim Welfare House...

Iffa: Ija, Iffa tak tahu laa apesal banyak sangat rezeki dapat.
Ija: Kenape? Ape pulak yang dapat kali ni?
Iffa: (senyum) Hehe...tibe2 printing credit iffa cam baru top up 10 pound.
Ija: Eh?
Iffa: Tu laa, besenye kalo betul Iffa top up tapi tak ingat pon, at least takdela sampai 10 pound. Paling banyak pon 5 pound jek.
Ija: Waa...untung laa Iffa...
Iffa: Huhuh...memang nak suh print assignment la tuh
Ija: (Gelak kuat)Iffa bace doa ape nih? Asyik dapat rezeki je? Bes..bes
Iffa: Doa? Takdelah.Isk..kadang2 takut pulak dapat rezeki banyak2 nih...ntah ape dugaan kat depan nanti. Tapi syukur sangat2...


The reason Ija tanye dapat ape pulak KALI NI tuh adelah kerana ari tuh dapat email pasal elaun buku tuh and last thursday ade dapat keje pegi buat survey kat metrocentre, kene isi je survey tuh then buleh dapat 10 pound although duit tuh habes buat beli coklat kat ASDA jek lepas tuh...


Huhu...luas sungguh limpahan rezeki Allah...tuh baru duitan semate2. cop, bukan duit pon, rezeki selalu dapat kesenangan, takyah banyak pikir...belum lagi kalo nak pikir kesihatan, akal etc. Tapi banyak mane agaknye kite bersyukur kat tuhan ye?

P/S: pinjam duit orang taksame ngan duit sendiri...tapi duit JPA? Duit rakyat? Huhu, makan gaji bute rupenye, sebab tuh laa kene stadi betul2, jangan hampakan harapan rakyat yang dah penat2 bayar cukai. sebulan RM 2800 cam keje pulak rasenye. Jadi marilah bekerja sebagai seorang student yang berjaye. So ape lagi?? Gerak Iffa!! Jangan asyik main internet jek!!

Cop. Tambah sket before gerak. Kesimpulannye:

1. Seronok kalau ade kawan yang trust kat kite nih. Bukan nak mention pasal duit jek kat sini. Tapi...hmm...camne nak explain aa? Seronok laa, lagi2 kalo sefikrah, sekufu, satu kepale...eheh, takkan due plak yer
2. Pinjam duit orang kene bayar balik. Ingat tuh.
3. Rezeki adelah dari Allah. Hmm..kadang2 Allah kasi rezeki kite nak sangat...tapi yang paling penting, hidayah Allah yang patut kita dambakan. Alangkah baiknya kalau mendambakan hidayah-Nya sebagaimana sukanya kita bile datang limpah rahmat-Nya yang jelas bagi kita?
4. Manusia nih suka kemewahan dunia.
5. Sebenarnye, lagi ade duit lagi rase nak belanje. Kalo takde, pandai je jimat n survive. Dah berape banyak spent for coklat jek...huuh, tapi coklat bes sangat. Papa kate kalo untuk makan, jangan kedekut. Nanti sakit takleh makan dah...hehe, amik nasihat ayah laa camni.
6. Yang dalam P/S kat atas tuh, cube pikir balik. Actually tuh hanyelaa one of the rationale yang kite boleh amik for why kene stadi bebetul...But the most important thing is kite kene stadi sebab Allah, jadikan ia satu ibadah, mengharapkan keredhaanNya. Baru la dapat due2 skali. Belajar kan dituntut dalam Islam.
7. (Tambah sendiri. Nak wat keje dah.)

Friday, April 15, 2005

TO JPA STUDENTS

-----1ST EMAIL-----
From: A JPA student
To: jpalondon@btconnect.com; asmawati@jpa.gov.my
Subject: RE: Maklumat mengenai kos sara hidup pelajar2 postgaraduate <--- tak relevan sket, probably rentetan from emel sebelumnya)

Setelah lebih 7 bulan berada di UK ini dan tinggal lagi hanya 2 bulan sahaja dalam kalender akademik universiti pelajar2 tajaan pihak Tuan masih lagi belum menerima Elaun buku dan elaun perkakasan yang bernilai GBP162 dan GBP46(minimum) masing-masing. nampaknya elaun tersebut tidak akan dapat mencapai tujuannya kerana tahun akademik sesi 2004/05 hampir berakhir.Bagaimanapun ingin saya ketahui, bilakah elaun tersebut dapat dinikmati? Wassalam


-----2ND EMAIL-----
From: JPA LONDON OFFICE" <jpalondon@btconnect.com>
To: the JPA student, asmawati@jpa.gov.my
Sent: Wednesday, April 13, 2005 10:56 PM
Subject: Status Pembayaran Elaun Buku Serta Alat Perkakas Sesi 2004/2005

Cik Asmawati

Perkara yg sama telah dibangkitkan oleh ramai pelajar kita. Biasanya elaun buku dan perkakas dibayar pada awal tahun pengajian dan semasa pelajarmula-mula sampai. Kini sesi pengajian tahun 2004/2005 akan tamat tidak lamalagi. Bolehkah puan dapat memberikan penjelasan sewajarnya serta membantusaya menjawab kepada pelajar2 kita di sini. Terima kasih.

SARIPUDDIN KASIM
HIGH COMMISSION OF MALAYSIA
Public Service Department (UK Office)
30-34 Queensborough Terrace
London W2 3ST
Office: 020 7792 9364
Fax: 020 7792 9792
Email: JPALONDON@btconnect.com


-----3RD EMAIL-----
From: Asmawati" <asmawati@jpa.gov.my>
To: JPA LONDON OFFICE" jpalondon@btconnect.com;the JPA student
Subject: Re: Status Pembayaran Elaun Buku Serta Alat Perkakas Sesi 2004/2005
Date: Thu, 14 Apr 2005 08:16:26 +0800

En. Saripudin,

Pembayaran elaun alat perkakas dan elaun buku dibayar bersekali dengan ESH akan datang (Mei, Jun, Julai). Sepatutnya elaun-elaun tersebut dibayar pada bulan Ogos tetapi kami telah work out dengan Unit Kewangan & BTM untuk bayar lebih awal. Oleh yang demikian, pelajar akan terima elaun-elaun tersebut pada hujung April ini.

Sekian, harap maklum.

Asmawati Borhan
Training Division
Public Service Department
Malaysia

Tel: 603-88853386
Fax: 603-88892170


-----4TH EMAIL-----
From: the JPA student
Date: Thu, 14 Apr 2005 07:37:39 +0100
Subject: FW: Re: Status Pembayaran Elaun Buku Serta Alat Perkakas Sesi 2004/2005

Assalamualaikum,

For JPA STudent only.

Just nak buat pengumuman kat sini...Elaun Buku (GBP162) dan Alat Perkakas (min GBP46) akan dibayar bersama2 dengan Elaun Sara Hidup (Mei, Jun, Julai)hujung bulan April ini. So jgn terkejut plak tetiba duit banyak...and plan ur budget wisely....

Wassalam


KESIMPULAN: Alhamdulillah...ade je rezeki Allah nak kasi bile dah kesuntukan duit nih. Harap2 buleh save simpan buat beli laptop =)

BEARING IN MIND: "Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah Mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" [al-Baqarah; 216]

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

TONGUE TWISTER

Salam,

It's already a week since I got back from Paris & Cologne trip with all best friends from the former college- Asma', Aisyah & Hajar; and my youngest housemate, Dila. It was sooo nice, but do not feel like telling the whole story here. The most important thing is that it was a really nice trip with them. We are still the same old us, aren't we? Hehe, especially Asma' laa....(haa..nak sangat aku mention name ko banyak2). She was trying to talk in my loghat 'tranung kite', but it turned out to be more like Kelantan, and my god, she influenced us a lot, hasn't she...almost all the time we talk in Kelantan, even Hajar pon. Haha...Although I know we sounds soo sumbang, and I hate to rosakkan loghat Kelantan yang bes tuh....but it was so funny with somebody trying to be soft spoken, so teramik2 watak sinchan menari plak. "Takpo takpo la deh..." (sambil goyang2 kepale). Hehe, can still recall that in my head. Some points to remember (warning: only 5 of us would possibly fully understand these):

1. Of coz that "takpo2 la deh..."
2. Hilang tiket pastuh emo =( <---- huhu...sori guys
3. Ariski (don't know the correct spelling)
4. 20 minutes flight?? Hahaha
5. The only night we spent at Koln
6. Tragedies from Gare Du Nord train station till we reached airport
7. One night at the airport
8. 1 and half day travelling back from Koln to Newcastle <--- what an exhausted journey!

Anyway, again, the trip was so great and I am looking forward to hanging out with them again. Thanks guys! The trip would be much different if u guys were not there! And the credits also go to Lina and Raudhah in Paris to have let us stayed, or in other words, packed ourselves (macam sardin) in your rooms, and even cooked for us! (to syedfa jugak, sebab kalo tak, tak tercontact Lina pon), and to Amiril to be our patient free-charged tour guide, and for all the treats. Thanks.

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Our reunion - Can't believe I am missing my frens already...this is what we call ukhwah rather than fren

Am currently working on my assignment 4; The Family Study Project. Have finished doing the report - 1st draft; with so many things left out and not yet inclusive of reflections...but I already put in 2679 words!! How can they expect us to put EVERYTHING in one small report?? Hmmm...dugaan...InsyaAllah can work through it, and hopefully everything will be fine. Have no idea for the 3rd section yet, coz my study mother is so socially fit and healthy. Sometimes I wonder why do people always go for bad points while we can find out good things? Jangan "suuzzon" (sangke buruk)..hehe, tak kene mengene...So why not I narrate the social construction essay by looking at the positive outcomes?? Hmm...tengokla camne.

Tengah bosan2 n pening2 malas nak sambung buat assignment tadi, found this tongue twister...interesting.

Ned Nott was shot
and Sam Shott was not.
So it is better to be Shott
than Nott.
Some say Nott
was not shot.
But Shott says
he shot Nott.
Either the shot Shott shot at Nott
was not shot,
or
Nott was shot.
If the shot Shott shot shot Nott,
Nott was shot.
But if the shot Shott shot shot Shott,
then Shott was shot,
not Nott.
However,
the shot Shott shot shot not Shott --
but Nott.

Discussed about qadha and qadar with Aisyah during the trip. Hmm...like the quotes from Aisyah's blog I pasted here before, I think I am beginning to understand more about what she meant. All things has been set for us by God, and we can never change them, no matter what we do. Not even our effort, but we need the effort to get the blessings from Allah, just nak dapat keredhaanNya. Sebab kalau kite tak usaha, the same thing will happen. Hmm...come to this point, I am confused again, ie when considering about studying for exam (any comments?)... But for sure, I am convinced about this one thing: Kita semue tahu Islam akan naik satu hari nanti...insyaAllah. Depend on us nak tergolong dalam golongan yang same2 berusaha menaikkan agama kita, atau tak. Tapi Islam tetap akan naik. Cuma yang ruginya adalah kita kalau taknak terlibat menaikkan agama Allah. So, pilihlah yang mane kite nak...nak tergolong dalam golongan yang rugi atau yang diredhai Allah? Wallahua'lam

[Hmm..too long for an entry =p]

Sunday, March 27, 2005

AIDUL MILAD MAMA

Am waiting for Kak Umi and her husband, and their cute little lad, Huzaifah Aiman. It is Sunday, and they are going to give me and Dila(my housemate) a lift to Blaydon Carboot sale. This is going to be my 2nd time going to carboot.

Today is my mom's birthday, and I haven't yet give her a call. Don't think she'll be at home at this time. Well, have to remember of deducting less hour to call Malaysia from today coz the Europian summer time has begun, so now the time here will be 7 hours later than that in Malaysia, instead of 8 hours.

I won't say anything about gifts or wutsoever I am sending to my mom, briefly coz I am not sending her anything. Yes, that's rite. I remember one controversial issue arose when I was in college about ringing ur mum during the mother's day (tapi x ingat apesal laa kontroversi sangat). For me, it depends on how your mum expect you to do something on days that they regard as special. Say your mum would be heartbroken if you do not give them gift, then it would be better to do what she prefers, rite? But some mothers do not bother that much about their children getting them gifts, a call would be enough, and perhaps some mothers do not even realise the existence of those special days (only one that I can relate here, actually - mother's day). Ask yourselves and you will get the answer. I mean, we know our own mother don't we? I hav a friend whose siblings (including her) always give their mother presents or cards (at least) during the mother's day, so it will be kinda weird if they stop doing that. Who knows how her mum is gonna react if she or one of her siblings does not give her present. The most important point here is to be nice to our mum, to please them. As for me, sometimes I just happened to bought my mum things, and I got this sentence from her "dakyoh laa susoh2 beli barang....mahal pulok tuh. Perabih duit je". Alaa...kalo xabeskan duit beli barang untuk mak, habis jugak duit tuh beli benda merepek2, ye dak? (so baik beli sumthing utk mak). Although she said that, I could see the sense of being appreciated in her face when we(me or my sis) gave her presents, no matter how kodi they are...

Hehe...just back from carboot. Tadi stop kejap sebab Kak Umi dah sampai. Now I have no idea what I was getting to before. I have also just called my beloved mama, and we spent more time talking about some news back in Malaysia and my trip to Paris in the next 2 days. And as usual, she asked me about my studies. I always expect that everytime I call her =). Talking about mothers... they are so special. Islam pon dah naikkan martabat wanita yang bergelar ibu. "Syurga itu di bawah telapak kaki ibu".

Penat mak kita mengandungkan kita, pastuh mase baby asyik nangis sampai laa besar suke merengek nak itu, nak ini, tapi mak jage jugak dengan penuh kasih sayang. Kalo mak tak bagi kita buat ape2 sebab die sayang kat kita, kita cakap mak tak sayang pulak. Hantar sekolah, masak nasi, beri makan, semue mak yang buat...susahnye anak nak tolong mak. Kadang2 mak mintak tolong buat keje sket pon merengek. Isk3...astaghfirullahal'azim, mudah2 an kita elakkan laa mende2 camnih. Tak cukup tuh, bile dah besar, nanti nak kahwin, manelaa tau mak tak berkenan calon isteri yang dibawak balik rumah, tapi nak bagi chance kat anak, jumpe dulu. Tengok baik ke tak. Bukan ape, takut nanti tak pandai jalankan tanggungjawab sebagai isteri solehah. Kalo before kahwin suh pakai tudung, cakap nak pakai lepas kahwin. Sebenarnya, bukannya pandang hina sangat kalo x pakai tudung nih, tapi itukan suruhan Allah. Lagi satu bukannye tau mati lepas kahwin ke before. Bimbang jugak lepas kahwin nanti degil plak, takpasal2 anak die plak kene tanggung dosa si isteri. Isk3...kene fikir lagi, nak bagi ke taknak. Ari tuh sibuk tanye bile anak nak kahwin, skang anak dah bawa balik calon, tak kenan la plak. Nanti tak bagi kahwin, kot2 laa lagi memudaratkan. Berdoa je laa mudah2an tuhan tunjukkan jalan yang terbaik. Sebab Allah Maha Mengetahui mana yang terbaik untuk hamba-Nya.

Huhu...tibe2 buat karangan plak. Takde keje. Tapi tulaa...pengajarannya: Marilah kita same2 sedar setiap saat betapa sayangnya mak kita kat kita. Nak balas jasa derg memang tak mampu, sekurang2nya janganla bebankan derg lagi (alamak, lepas nih, nak mintak beli laptop...camne nih? Tak beban kot ek <---inilaa anak...tak habes2 mintak itu ini). Cukuplaa masuk labour room takpon, tengok dalam tv je of a mother giving birth to her baby...MasyaAllah, besarnye pengorbanan mak. Teringat satu kisah (tak ingat zaman mane), yang ade sorang budak mendukung bapak die. Lepas tuh ade orang tanye kenapa dukung bapak die. Budak tuh cakap sebab mase kecik, die sakit, bapak die gendong die cari ubat. Ke camne ntah...lebey kurang arr... Tapi budak tuh cakap jugak, walaupon buat same cam ape yang bapak die buat, die still tak buleh balas jase bapak die, sebab kalo bapak die dulu sure harap die slalu sihat, tapi dalam hati si anak mesti ade rase terbeban dengan kehadiran ayah yang sakit uzur dan perlukan bantuan. Mehlaa kite same2 sedar pasni.

Actually, tengah nervous nak pegi Paris lusa. Better get ready, packing up things, and make sure all tickets and important documents and wutsoever tak tertinggal. Bus to london will be at 6.15 a.m. (hhuuhu, awalnye) on Tuesday. Adrenaline is rushing through my nerves... Can't wait to see my good frens and spend the holidays with em. Hopefully, everything will be fine. Hopefully, everything will turn out as wut we planned. Ameen...

Friday, March 25, 2005

MISSING MEANS TWO

Had a chat with a junior from my secondary school a few nights ago (though I never met him before). SMKARA...now in history. One, coz I am not there anymore. Two, coz the new name is SMKAKA. No more KARA. MISS my frens, dormates, classmates, teachers, and the school itself... I have had an enjoyable and fun time there.

Rite now reflecting those times when I was in SMKARA... Why didn't I use it wisely to learn more about Islam? About history? Having been in a SMKA ie islamic school should have given me the most valuable things to learn: ISLAM - if only I have grabbed all those oppurtunities, but sad to say, I don't think I did. All I did was studying, answering ppl questions, sitting for some 'duniawi' tests, dipping myself with quizzes, having fun with my frens (or more particular 'geng'), enjoying trips to there and there, boycotting the canteen - although I can't help getting me goreng pisang yang sedap bangat tuh especially kalo tambah sos, and nasi lemak was irresistable as well (wut an unforgettable memory ever) and...etc. I am not regretting those times, it was fun...but wouldn't it be more nice if I concentrate more on my islamic knowledge, not only based on the syllabus, but based on wut we as muslims should know.

If only I could repeat all those times...but the fact is I can't. All I have now is my present life which I have to move on with, and my future, yet to be determined. And for reminder, especially to me myself, we are all here for one reason. Check the holy Quran [51;56]

وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنسَ إِلَّا لِيَعْبُدُونِ

I created the jinn and humankind only that they might worship Me

A bit of quote from my fren's blog which is very meaningful: "Apa pun kita usaha, segala ape yg berlaku atas kita dah ditentukan Allah. Kita berusaha sedaya upaya hanya kerana ingin melakukan ibadah yg terbaik dalam ibadah kita. Tanpa mengharapkan apa2 dr usaha yg kita lakukan. Itulah ibadah yg sebenar2nya.." (from wan aisyah wan muda <--kene tulis satgi jadi plagiarism plak, hehe).

So why not we do everything lillahita'ala...whoever we are, where ever we go, and wutever we do... at least all things we do will be regarded as ibadah, selagi tak langgar hukum syarak. Wallahualam.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

HAPPY.HAPPY.HAPPY.

Why?

1. Submitted my assignment 3: literature search and critical appraisal.

I have NO idea what I submitted in, but at least it's gone! I actually tried to complete it before wednesday at 5 coz my housemate gave me a ticket to International Night at Northumbria University (though they didn't even check the ticket). Then the next day (which was yesterday), didn't have 9 o'clock lecture, but went quite early, just to print out everything and submit it a.s.a.p. BUT I only realised I didn't bring the disclaimer and front page of the assignment after I finished printing all of them out!!! And that was about 10 minutes before my DR session- too late to ask Ija to bring it from home. So after DR went back home, get the sheets, went back to school, and stapled them together and finally...there I was, at Porter's Lodge with 3 copies of assignment 3, putting them all into the box...relieved!!!!!! No more assignment 3 =) Hope it turns out ok.

2. Had a social dinner with my groupmates last night. It was great =)

Had it at Scalini's (an Italian restaurant) from 6 to 10(for me n Lara - most of them went to a bar afterwards and only went back at half one!-->which of coz no need to mention why don't I join em). I turned up a bit later by the way, coz maghrib started at 6.15 pm yesterday, so prayed first at the muslim welfare house, then went there, firstly based on Oniye's map, then kinda lost, but Lara's map kept me on the right track. Good teamwork there. Claire n Lara ordered me a vege pizza. It was so large - but food n me?? Irresistable! Can't believe I ate it on my own, alone... except I didn't finish half of it's (kinda) crispy edge. I wanted to finish it. I knew I still have some space in my lesser sac, but I felt so tired chewing it, plus I was so sick to be sitting in front of the computer continuously for quite a few days b4(for the assignment of course), not to mention , as wut I just told, I went back home just for the sake of getting those sheets (it was about 40minutes to n from).

I was so tired, if they didn't make this plan, I would have probably been sleeping on my purple bed, covered by me duvey, with the electric underblanket keeping me warm.... that would be nice but I can always do that later (like, after I finish updating my blog, probably =P), and I kinda like the idea too - it did make me feel the sense of belonging though I didn't really go around and talk with all of them... I wish I had the chance, and can't describe how I wish my English is much much better (itulaa dulu xnak blaja betul2, malas membace, huhu...and again, probably beyond my confidence level<---sure Mr Zaidi marah lagi). I know it will always be my fault, my weakness if i don't get over it. But hopefully time will erase all that. (and that's why I'm writing in English - forgive me if i am grammatically wrong, and perhaps u guys shud correct me coz that's the rite way of learning isn't it?) Well, at least I ended up with a great conversation with Claire and Lara after most of them went to a bar nearby. Cheers guys, I was so relieved talking to u guys. And thanx for being so helpful. I was so glad, and I still am. It feels so good to know other people would like to help you. And most of all, thanks to the Almighty God to have grouped me with all these great people and open their heart, hope it will turn out ok sooner. Group 11 rawks!! Eheh, lame tak dengar perkataan tuh. (more pics here)

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(missing: Bella)



3. It's holidays!!! Can hardly wait to meet Aisyah, Asma' n Hajar, and be a crazy us again. And of coz looking forward going to Paris with them. Well, save that for another entry.

4. I had a yogurt ...nyummy..nyummy...(summer biopot: mango, papaya & passion fruit - trust me, i don't get any money to promote this) and now I am eating an apple!! No...not food again!! (but at least I eat healthy food, do i?) By the way did I mention I eat vege now??Did I?? A thing to be proud of ;D

5. Malaysian night was great. Thought not much people coming, but amazingly, all tickets were sold out, and some people still came to buy the ticket at the door. I feel sorry for them, I wish they could join it. If only the place was much bigger.... Anyway, the best part is (not really the best part, coz it's kind of controversial) I happened to be the grand prize lucky draw winner!! Yup! Won a trip to Europe with Kelana Convoy. It's worth £429. Wow! xpenah2 dapat lucky draw, and suddenly... almost equivalent to RM 3000!

Wassalam.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHIM!!!

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Comel tak Fahim???

He's 2 years old now!! Went to his birthday party last saturday, had a really nice time kat rumah Kak Dila n Kak Muazah, 2 happy go lucky and very informative sisters (Wut i mean by sisters here is sister ie blood relationship). Scroll down and have a guess which ones are them. Senang gile nak cari, muke sebiji same. I had always mistaken Kak Dila with Kak Muazah. They are so like twins!! Sebbaik sorang dah pakai braces, at least senang sket nak cam. hehe... Sori yer, akak2, mengumpat sket lam blog. Anyway, don't really hav time to update this blog, but can't help myself to copy these pics... if I don't do this now, I will probably never upload these cute pics of cute n innocent little children. No words needed, a picture worth thousands of words rite??(hmm...so this might be the longest entry so far =P)

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For more pictures, can go to Kak Muazah's fotopages by clicking here

Saturday, February 19, 2005

ANOTHER ENTRY

Salam,

Am spending some times in front of the computer, doing nothing particular to be described as 'work'. Just browsing friendster bulletin board. It has been a long time since I logged in to friendster.

So found this - what I think as a valuable article to be shared with - posted by a friend of mine; check it out:

Assalamu'alaikum wr wb Alhamdulillah umi akan paparkan satu wawancara yang begitu menyentuh hati umi dan juga setiap jiwa mereka yang beriman insyaAllah. "Saya marah pada orang Melayu. Mereka tidak serius bercerita mengenai Islam. Mereka sambil lewa seolah-olah mereka saja yang mahu masuk syurga," katanya dengan nada kesal bercampur marah.

Menurutnya lagi, di akhirat kelak, orang bukan Islam akan mengadu kepada Allah dengan kata-kata seperti, "Kami berkawan dengan mereka (orang Melayu) selama bertahun-tahun tetapi mereka tidak pernah mengajak kami ke arah agama mereka."

Adakah umat Melayu Islam bersedia untuk menghadapi aduan itu? Selama beberapa tahun, saya tidak nampak kecantikan Islam. Sebaliknya rasa macam hendak lari daripada Islam apabila mereka terlalu menekankan soal hukum hakam tanpa berhujah dengan terperinci mengenainya. Pada pandangan saya, ISLAM DIHIJAB OLEH ORANG ISLAM SENDIRI."

Siapakah saya di atas itu? Beliau ialah Shah Krikit bin Kakulal Govindji, seorang pendakwah sepenuh masa di IIS (Islamic Information Service Foundation) dan pengurus kedai buku Saba Islamic Media Sdn Bhd.(kalau xsilap, dia pernah datang kmys and bagi talk mase symposium nuqaba' dulu). Beliau mengakui kadang-kala air matanya berlinangan apabila mendengar paderi bercakap di dalam gereja yang lemah lembut mengajak pada agama mereka.

Itulah sebenarnya yang diajar oleh Islam. Malangnya, tidak ramai Imam di masjid yang bercakap dengan nada lemah lembut atau mengambil berat tentang kebajikan qariahnya. Orang Kristian sering mengajak penganut agama lain memasuki gereja tetapi orang Islam sering menghalau orang kafir daripada memijak kawasan masjid.

Inikah Islam yang diajar oleh Nabi Muhammad saw.? Sedangkan di zaman Rasulullah saw. baginda biasa mengajak utusan orang kafir dari luar Madinah untuk bermalam di masjid Nabawi. (diedit dari majalah Milenia Muslim terbitan YADIM - Yayasan Dakwah Islam Malaysia) Februari 2005) Wallahuta'ala a'lam bissawab Wassalamu'alaikum wr wb ummimq

And here is another one:

Seorang lelaki berjalan mundar-mandir di lorong hospital, gelisah akan keadaan isterinya yang akan melahirkan anak sulung mereka. Setelah beberapa jam ia menunggu, tak jua terdengar tangisan bayi.

Tiba-tiba,seorang doktor berjalan tergopoh-gopoh keluar dari ruang persalinan menuju kearahnya. "Bagaimana keadaannya doktor?" tanyanya penuh harap. "Maaf encik, kami sudah berusaha, keadaannya amat kritikal. Si ibu sudah tak sedarkan diri! " jawab doktor itu. "Jadi bagaimana doktor ...?" "Kami tak mungkin dan berupaya untuk menyelamatkan keduanya, tapi masih ada harapan. Kami hanya punya satu pilihan, menyelamatkan si ibu, atau menyelamatkan si bayi!"

Lelaki tersebut kebingungan, dan tak dapat berkata-kata....... "Maaf encik, setiap saat amat berharga, tolong cepat untuk membuat pilihan!" desak doktor itu. Akhirnya, dengan berat hati lelaki itupun berkata dengan nada sayu, "Doktor, saya sangat bingung ... Saya serahkan sepenuhnya kepada doktor. Tolong lakukan yang terbaik!" pintanya. Doktor pun bergegas kembali ke ruang persalinan. Nampaknya dia sudah berpengalaman menangani masalah darurat atau kritikal seperti ini. Dan dia tahu apa yang harus dilakukannya.

Ini adalah salah satu contoh, bagaimana keyakinan beragama boleh mempengaruhi keputusan disaat genting. Bagi seorang doktor beragama kristian/katolik, ia akan berusaha menyelamatkan si anak, dan mengorbankan si ibu. Bagi doktor muslim, ia akan berusaha menyelamatkan si ibu, dan mengorbankan si bayi. Memang benar, dua-duanya adalah pilihan yang sukar, tapi itulah jalan terakhir dan muktamat. Mengapa ia boleh berlaku seperti demikian?

Dalam ajaran kristian, setiap manusia yang lahir sudah membawa dosa, doktrin ini dikenal dengan "dosa waris" atau "dosa asal". Manusia yang lahir sudah menanggung dosa Nabi Adam dan Hawa. Untuk menebusnya ia harus mengikuti seorang penyelamat yakni penebus dosa (Ketua Paderi atau Pope). Doktor Kristian itu akan berjuang sedaya upaya untuk menyelamatkan si anak, agar dia dapat lahir dengan sihat dan selamat walaupun sebaliknya terpaksa mengorbankan si ibu . Doktor berharap, setelah anak itu lahir ia akan mendapat kesempatan untuk dibaptiskan, untuk tujuan menebus dosanya. Jika si anak meninggal sebelum dibaptiskan, anak itu akan masuk neraka. Sebab, dosanya belum sempat ditebus.

Dalam ajaran Islam, setiap manusia lahir dalam keadaan fitrah/suci. Doktor muslim akan berjuang menyelamatkan si ibu, kerana dia tidak bimbang yang bayi akan masuk neraka. Dengan terselamatkannya si ibu, insyaAllah setelah sihat kembali akan dikurniai kekuatan untuk mengandung lagi dan mudah-mudahan mendapatkan ganti yang lebih baik, yang lebih soleh. Sedangkan anak yang tak sempat terselamatkan, biarlah ia kembali kepada Allah dalam keadaan suci. Mungkin lebih baik sekiranya bayi itu tidak dilahirkan di dunia yang penuh tipu daya ini agar hidupnya kelak tidak menjadi orang yang tersesat.

Demikianlah, dalam keadaan serba salah lelaki itu tak sempat untuk memastikan agama doktor tadi. Dan ia sudah berserah sepenuhnya kepada doktor itu.

Di dunia ini ada banyak agama dan kepercayaan. Pemahaman kita terhadap ajaran agama yang kita anut, akan menentukan jalan hidup kita. Itu sebabnya amat penting bagi kita orang Islam menentukan yang bakal menerima kelahiran anak kita adalah seorang doktor muslim.

Sejak bangun tidur, kita sudah dihadapkan kepada pilihan.
1. Meneruskan tidur, atau bangun sholat subuh?
2. Untuk lunch dahulu, atau sholat zohor dahulu?
3. Setelah habis kerja, adakah terus pulang ke rumah, atau singgah ke gerai kopi/disco dahulu?
4. Ikut terlibat melakukan pecah amanah, atau dimusuhi rakan sekerja?
5. Menyegerakan berkahwin, atau menundanya dulu?
6. Hidup mulia di sisi Allah, atau mulia dalam pandangan manusia?
7. Dan banyak lagi.....

Hmm...camtuh ek, memang bg kristian lagi penting selamatkan baby ke?? Interesting question to ask a groupmate, anyway. tp kene laa prepare kalo derg tanye balik pasal kite plak. Another iktibar from the latter article was not to be syirik. Probably we think the doc can decide who's going to be saved, but the truth is....it's all in god's hand. Dr cume laa ikhtiar dan penyampai ie perantaraan dalam case nih, yang menentukan hanyelaa Dia yang maha esa.

A lil more news about me:
1. I'm not homeless anymore. Probably will move to 196 Dilston Road (a.k.a. rumah Poknik skang nih). InsyaAllah esok sign contract. Tapi nak balik Mesia jugak. Rumah kat KT lagi bes *sob sob*

2. I've got a copy of my result from my personal tutor, so can send it straight away to JPA ---ehe, trying to be a good student here =P

Until now, take care. Wassalam.

"Sebaik-baik manusia diantaramu adalah yang paling banyak manfaatnya bagi orang lain" (HR Bukhari)

Friday, February 18, 2005

NAK DEM DULU!!

1. Baru je habis buat practical medical database. Esok ade endnote plak. Kene blaja elok2 nanti lembap plak nak buat assignment yang bakal menyusul lepas nih.

2. Sbenanye, terase nak menaip nih sebab baru lepas bace blog tun. Die citer pasal anatomy. Tibe2 teringat nak bgtau korg demonstrator kat sini dah tukar. Huhuuh....bukanlaa nak cakap dem baru aku nih xbes, tapi.... aku prefer yang dulu. Dem dulu cakap lagi clear, pastuh die suke teka2 (nih kalo buleh jawab bes laa), pastuh very encouraging, sweet n baik plak tuh. Bergaye pon ade, heheh.... mebbe xsuke sangat dem baru nih sbb die cakap tenggelam timbul, or probably aku yang x bg full attention kot. Sbenanye, yang baru nih suke jugak teka2, and the words he was using that day were encouraging too, cume I like it the way my former dem cakap. Hehe...memang cikgu menginfluence semangat. I love anatomy. Walaupon xdela terer pon. Harap2 lepas nih sbb tukar dem xdelaa xminat dah plak. Anyway, baru skali ngan dem baru. Give me some times, and hopefully I'll feel lucky me of having him as my new dem. He must be good in his own way...

3. Semalam online, bincang ngan Hajar pasal nak gi Paris. Ade kebodohan geografi yang dah aku lakukan, hahaha - boleh senyum sengsorang macam orang gile bile pikir balik - but I'm not going to tell it here. Just know that I am so baaaad in geography ;P I remember how I hate geography dulu, sebbaik belajar for 3 years jek. Aisyah xonline, ape citer nih?? Aisyah?? Asma' xpe, aku tau ko exam. Gudlak anyway for another paper coming up - 22 feb kan??

4. Ngocop bitau 9 orang dak kmys dapat offer datang sini. Wow!! Congratulations! Makin ramaila populasi malaysian kat sini. Harap2 nanti bertambah lagi yang dapat offer tuh, untuk membantu sape2 yang tak dapat offer (kalau ade, tapi harap2 xdelaa, tension tau xdapat offer)

Guess that's all. Wassalam.

Monday, February 14, 2005

MUHASABAH DIRI LAGI: The Night They Raided Zouks

Lame tak bace news. Tadi dapat tahu pasal ni (thanx to this sister who told me this), mebbe ramai dah tahu kot. So macam biase, cut and paste:

KUALA LUMPUR, Feb 12 (IPS) - One Saturday night recently, Sarinah Majid, a 23-year-old accountant, was dancing the night away with her Chinese boyfriend at Zouks nightclub -- the most happening night spot in Malaysia's capital city.

Then suddenly the world, as she knew it, collapsed dramatically around her.''The music suddenly stopped, the lights came on and dozens of uniformed and plainclothes Islamic police were crowding the dance floor, shouting, gesticulating and ordering,'' said Sarinah using a pseudonym to avoid legal complications.

''What happened that night in January was humiliating, inhuman and thoroughly disgusting ... I felt ashamed to be a Muslim,'' Sarinah told IPS, relating to the shame and agony she and about 100 other Muslim youths suffered that night.Police from the Federal Territory's Islamic Department separated Muslims from non-Muslims.

While non-Muslims were told to party on, Muslims were herded into trucks and taken to the department's head office where the particulars of the youths were taken. They were held overnight and released the next day. They were then ordered to return for counseling sessions with Islamic clerics to learn the ''true'' Islam. Some will be prosecuted under 'syariah' laws for ''indecent behaviour.''

''They leered, jeered and ogled at us, took photographs of us and thoroughly humiliated us ... one of us even urinated in her pants out of shock and fright,'' Sarinah said.

''That night I became a criminal ... the Islamic police told me I had committed heinous sins forbidden by Islam,'' said Sarinah who studied at top schools here and in Australia.

''I have to appear before a 'syariah' court next month and be charged for indecent behaviour and punished accordingly.''

''I don't know what crime I had committed,'' she said spitting out the words with bitterness.

''I feel helpless and completely violated.''

Many moderate Muslims in the country are showing the same shock and anger felt by Sarinah. The incident has sparked a fiery debate focusing on morality and compulsion in Islam and the clash between a secular constitution that guarantees fundamental rights and freedom of choice and Islamic syariah laws that prescribes what a Muslim can wear and cannot and who he or she keeps company and where.

The raid at Zouks has shaken moderate Muslims and their fear and anger is palpable. Moderate Muslims had felt comfortable and safe with the election of Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi and the elevation of his Islam 'hadhari' or moderate Islam to official status. They had felt that the fundamentalist wave that had gripped the country with the ascendancy of the opposition Parti Islam se Malaysia of PAS was defeated and over.

''We were naïve to think fundamentalism was done away with when PAS was defeated at the polls last year and Abdullah announced his Islam 'hadhari','' said a prominent Muslim political analyst who declined to be named for fear of persecution by fundamentalist opponents.

Last March, Abdullah in his first election since taking over as prime minister swept through parliament with his coalition winning 198 out of the 219 parliamentary seats. The opposition only secured 20 seats with PAS seeing its number of seats decline from 27 in 1999 to just seven.

''Fundamentalism and intolerance runs very deep in Malay Muslim society,'' he told IPS.''It is everywhere in the schools, academia, media, politics and everyday life.''

''Muslims have few choices...our life is regulated and regimented,'' he said.

The constitution guarantees fundamental freedom for all citizens including Muslims. Nonetheless, Muslims are further governed by 'syariah' laws which each of the country's 13 states have enacted in the last decade. Within the capital, the applicable law is the Syariah Criminal Offences (Federal Territories) Act 1997. Section 19(1) prohibits Muslims from imbibing any intoxicating drink and Section 19(2) refers generally to the area of selling alcohol. Section 29 is the catchall killer that states ''any person who, contrary to Islamic Law, acts or behaves in an indecent manner in any public place shall be guilty of an offence.'' Under this vague section, Muslims are regularly arrested for ''indecent'' attire or behaviour like holding hands with someone from the opposite sex that is common among non-Muslims. Muslims charged under Section 29 usually plead guilty and quietly pay a fine usually under 1,000 ringgit (263 U.S. dollars). But this time the raid was on a top nightclub frequented by Muslim youths from influential upper class families with connections to powerful politicians. It is the cream of Malay society that was belittled and humiliated by the Islamic police. This law however does not specify what constitutes ''indecency''.

The question now is, is it an act of indecency to wear tight jeans or tank tops or dance at a nightclub where alcohol is served?

Human rights activist Elizabeth Wong points out that there is nothing in 'syariah' law that says a Muslim can't be in a club, cafe, bar, restaurant or venue that serves alcohol.

''There is nothing that says one can't dance or listen to very loud mind-numbing music,'' said Wong, a lawyer and director of HAKAM, a human rights organisation.

''The mere presence of Muslims in the nightclub does not constitute a criminal offence,'' she told IPS.''What constitutes indecent behaviour is also highly subjective.''

''The problem is not whether the religious authorities did their job in accordance with procedure. It's the existence of such laws that 'govern' moral behavior which violates fundamental liberties,'' she said.''These laws should never exist in the first place.''

Ape pandangan korang?

Hmm...teringat bulan lepas (rasenye laa) pasal Prince Henry pakai baju tentera nazi pegi "costume party". Kalo ikutkan dah name pon costume party, suke ati die laa kan nak pakai ape. Tapi betape yahudi pandang serius kat kes tuh (kalo tengok nampak cam kecik je hal tuh), siap suh minta maaf depan public lagi, xkire pangkat- kaye ke, miskin ke, tue ke, mude ke, tername ke, org kebanyakan ke.... and tak kire sekecik mane pon hal tuh.... Semangat tak diorg memperjuangkan kaum diorg?

Kite yang Islam nih camne? Agak2nye berani ke nak tentang orang berpangkat buat salah? Kawan sendiri pon tak berani nak tegur kadang2 tuh. Tambah lagi, kalo tengok news tadi tuh, terbalik pulak yang dipertahankan.

Moga2 kite dapat fikir dengan sebaik2nya. Wallahualam